Is it bad that I am not allowing myself to buy lunch today because I don't have money, and then validating that by thinking to myself that I'll be a lot more vulnerable in therapy today if my blood sugar is dangerously low at 3 PM and maybe that'll be a good thing? Is this indicative of disordered eating and do you think I should ask my therapist?

I think I'm kidding but it could be a fun social experiment.