Yo. Back on my birthday, Darien and I stopped by a pet store in case there were puppies I could capture. There was this wall with dog adoptions and lost dog ads and all sorts of depressing ass shit.  This is what one of them said:

Our 14 year old dog, Abbey, died last month. The day after she died, my 4 year old daughter Meredith was crying and talking about how much she missed Abbey.  She asked if we could write a letter to God so that when Abbey got to heaven, God would recognize her.  I told her that I thought we could so she dictated these words:
 

Dear God, 
Will you please take care of my dog? She died yesterday and is with you in heaven. I miss her very much. I am happy that you let me have her as my dog even though she got sick.

I hope you will play with her. She likes to play with balls and to swim. I am sending a picture of her so when you see her You will know that she is my dog. I really miss her.



Love, Meredith 



We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven. We put our return address on it. Then Meredith pasted several stamps on the front of the envelope because she said it would take lots of stamps to get the letter all the way to heaven. That afternoon she dropped it into the letter box at the post office. 

A few days later, she asked if God had gotten the letter yet.  I told her that I thought He had.



Yesterday, there was a package wrapped in gold paper on our front porch addressed, ‘To Meredith’ in an unfamiliar hand. Meredith opened it. Inside was a book by Mr. Rogers called, ‘When a Pet Dies.’ 

Taped to the inside front cover was the letter we had written to God in its opened envelope. On the opposite page was the picture of Abbey & Meredith and this note: 




Dear Meredith,



Abbey arrived safely in heaven. Having the picture was a big help. I recognized Abbey right away.



Abbey isn’t sick anymore. Her spirit is here with me just like it stays in your heart. Abbey loved being your dog.

  Since we don’t need our bodies in heaven, I don’t have any pockets to keep your picture in, so I am sending it back to you in this little book for you to keep and have something to remember Abbey by.



Thank you for the beautiful letter and thank your mother for helping you write it and sending it to me. What a wonderful mother you have. I picked her especially for you.

I send my blessings every day and remember that I love you very much. By the way, I’m easy to find, I am wherever there is love. 


Love, 
God




DAMN, RIGHT? DAMN. I cried for a good hour after I read that. It was, like, too much! Too much sadness, too much! DAMN.

Then I got the SAME EXACT thing in my email today. A chain letter! This was a chain letter! I should’ve known! A card can’t get to heaven with lots of stamps! It can’t even get to Pluto! DAMN. THOUGHT I KNEW.

I miss my puppy. A lot. I still haven’t fully coped with Mickey dying, and while I have Duke to take a lot of that away, I can’t think about it too hard or else I’ll turn into a puddle of melt.

A lot of people joke about how they don’t know what they’ll do when their dog dies. And.. well, you do know what to do. Let’s not be ridiculous, you know? But holy crap, it is sadder than you think it’ll be. No matter how sad you think it will be, it will be sadder. It’s like the death of a best friend and a child all at once. I mean, not literally, but kind of. A best friend-lite and a child-lite. Diet versions.